Friday, 23 September 2011

Another Year

Hey my lovely ladies!

How are we on this fine (but freezing) afternoon?  I'm finding 19 degrees just a wee bit frosty for my liking although I know it'll now be 6 months of temperatures between -3 to 14 degrees...eugh.  I'd love it if I could just move all the great parts of London to a nice hot country...mmmm sun and heat...although saying that I love snow and skiing...

Anyhows just to let you all know I'm plateauing at 110lbs...no movement whatsoever, this is mostly because I have only been to the gym once in one week! ahh I feel like a sloth but I have been spring cleaning and running about the place.  My main obstruction is the amount of reading I have to get done before I start back at uni, it's just huge plus the in-laws are arriving on Sunday for 4 days and we'll be out eating a couple of those nights which is scary because I'm frightened of putting on anymore weight.  I think my mum talked to my bf about my eating because he's been forcing me to finish my plate every evening and giving me massive portion sizes.  I just can't handle it!  Luckily with my new timetable I've scheduled in 4 gym sessions a week, I don't know if I can afford more than that because at the moment going to the gym is a 3hr round trip which takes up a huge chunk of reading/bf time, also I need one full day a week to work so I can actually earn some money otherwise I'll be flying off to Canada in December with only a few dollars in my pocket.

I'm officially a size 6(US2) now as the trousers I now buy are all that size,  before I was a UK6 on top but 8 on the bottom but my bum has reduced enough in size.  lol.  It's a bit annoying as losing weight through exercise has meant my boobs and my bum have completely diminshed, i.e. the curvy bits but on my thighs I think I've only lost about 2mm...what on earth is up with that?!  My goal is actually now a size UK4(US0)  as it won't look that skeletal on me due to my height and frame, my legs won't be that skinny anyhows,  although I might just have become a flat chest by that point...hmm.  Also girlies I'm almost a month late on the period side of things, I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant due to the fact my boyfriend and I haven't been hugely sexually active and we always use condoms.  I would buy a pregnancy test but they're expensive and I'm a cheap-ass student...I have a dr's appt to get more stomach meds next week so I might just ask for an on-the-spot one whilst I'm there.  Anybody else had this when losing weight?  Purely because even when I was mia and lost 28lbs I never had any problems with my period, it only got a little bit lighter but otherwise stayed regular.

In other news I went for an audition (just for an amateur dramatics company) on Wednesday and have got a callback for tomorrow so that should be exciting, I'm hoping to get a part as I haven't actually been in a proper production since leaving school and I miss being on stage sooooo much, I just love it!  Not just the stage part but the preparation and rehearsals, the social aspect and of course the liberation that acting brings, I just adore it!

Has anybody tried the teeth whitening kits you get from your dentist?  I've just done my first night with the moulds and gel in and today my teeth are super sensitive, I already use Sensodyne toothpaste so I guess there's not much else I can do except grin and bear it until the week's course is finished.  A friend of mine said she had sensitivity for 2 days and then it went away but it's seriously getting on my nerves as I've never experienced tooth sensitivity in my life.  My dentist did also say that I was almost guaranteed to feel it so I know it's normal to some extent but it's just so annoying!  Also the fact I can't drink any Coke Zero, coffee or tea is pissing me off after just half a day, well I can drink them but the results of the whitening will apparantly be significantly less and I didn't just fork out £200 to get a half-arsed result.  I've just realised the irony of the fact I will spend £200 on vanity and won't  spend £12 on a pregnancy test kit...but then again the pregnancy test I can get done on the Health Service and teeth whitening I can't so I suppose that is my reasoning, plus I had to ask my dad for the whitening money so technically it wasn't my money.  Oh dear, how shallow I must sound!  Mind you with all the money I'm saving on coffee and coke zero this week I probably can afford to buy a test kit...I've done it just once before and shoved it to the bottom of my basket and for some reason felt so embarrassed when the guy scanned it through, probably my ingrained Xtian upbringing telling me how stupid it is to get pregnant outside of marriage!  Luckily I never have been pregnant and forced into making that decision because although I hate the thought of denying life I also am one of the most selfish people I know and I also hate the thought of having to sacrifice my life for another's because I was careless enough to get pregnant.  More than anything that's probably why I stayed a virgin so long (not just because of hellfire but) because I was scared of getting pregnant.   I've seen so many of my friends have abortions or sacrifice their futures because of it that it just scared me shitless.


So progress pics time I guess, I was going to waiting until 100lbs but as I already missed my 106lb window I thought I'd give you the difference between 116.6lbs and 110lbs, there's more of a difference I feel in the fact I also went to gym and so there's not as much loose skin as there would have been if it was purely diet.  The 110lbs pic is of me in my bikini instead of underwear, purely because I love the bikini itself but also you are able to see more clearly my loss of boobage and bum - bye bye wonderful breasts!  (my poor bf, he's been mourning the loss of my cleavage recently...)

116lbs


110lbs



Love you all so much and 50 followers! I can't believe it!  Big hugs and skinny love (although I wouldn't wish this obsession on anyone) 
xx

3 comments:

  1. Congrats to you and all your progress! I def see a difference between the 116 & 110.

    As for the teeth, yeah, it's pretty normal to experience sensitivity post-whitening. I use an M.I. Paste before and after whitening to help with sensitivity. I got it from my dentist, so I'm not sure if it's offered on-line or not. ... But it seems to help with the sensitivity.

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  2. I definitely see a difference too! You are doing so good. I'm selfish too. I'm married and I still don't want a kid. Sorry the BF is force feeding you. I hate it when my hubby insists on my eating or fixes my plate. I feel so out of control.

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  3. Your looking good girl! i really see a difference keep it up.I wish i plateaued at 110 :(
    <3 hugs <3

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