Tuesday, 31 May 2011

Summer's resolution?

Well what a fantastic weekend!  I had an amazing time with my boyfriend's friends, danced a lot, drank a lot and ate very little :)  I did put on half a pound but considering the amount I drank I am not surprised. 

So I'm nervous about tomorrow, I've eaten 878.5cals today which is more than I was aiming for purely because I wanted to lose at least a pound to show I'd lost weight from last Wednesday.  But I have a soft spot for my special salad - it contains mixed salad leaves, cucumber, red or orange pepper(capsicum), 1 red chilli, raspberries, blueberries and small pimiento stuffed green olives.  It's so tasty that most people agree that it never needs dressing (apart from my brother the ketchup monster). 

Ooo I love my new yogalates dvd, it's not as challenging as I thought it would be but it has a 15 minute instant abs section which is a total killer!  Also from using my new abs toning machine from last week I've lost half an inch off my waist! (so that kind of makes up for the weight gain).

So ladies I'm all set to go full steam ahead from tomorrow - this will be gym everyday(the membership time I have left), dvds, toning belt and on less active days a target of 800cals or less.  Bring it on!

One last thing before I bore you all to death, I had a MASSIVE row with the boyfriend last night because first he said he would let me portion out my own food and then went ahead and dished me out a huge portion and when I separated out the food I was going to eat off the plate he started having a go at me and was telling me how to eat my food.  Well I completely flipped, I think it was the control - obviously when you are trying to control your intake and someone comes in and starts trying to dictate how you eat it's infuriating!  That's why I moved out when I was 18, worked, went travelling, etc because I wanted freedom - I don't want another home situation where I'm told what to do!!!  I've decided it's easier if I cook now, that way he can't dictate and I don't mind cooking more calorific things because I'll just give myself a smaller portion. 

Weigh day tomorrow, wish me luck!

Friday, 27 May 2011

Just a quick one!

So just a quicky (no inuendo intended!),  to say that I was a bit demoralised this morning, stayed the same weight but not surprising after indulging in alcohol last night and sitting around snuggling the boyfriend.  So today I went mental and did a massive clean up of the flat, turned on my abs toning belt and am now twiddling my fingers until I leave tonight, doing loads of washes and ironing but I don't really have enough hanging space to continue. 

I'm on liquids today so had a fat free yoghurt(in my books yoghurt is a liquid...kind of...) and am drinking tea until I leave, then out tonight, might have wine but I may just stick to lime and soda water - I lived off of it when I worked in a bar as the manager wouldn't let us drink anything more expensive until we'd finished our shift!  I have to say bar work at weekends is the best calorie burning job, you're just constantly going and can't sit down and my arms have been very toned ever since - heaving ice buckets and pulling pints (of real ale, not lager) is no easy job.  Plus it's really social so you get out and don't feel like such a recluse.

Anyway enough of my musings, see you after the weekend!

Alcohol, Storms and Weekends

Well hello,

So today would have been uneventful except it was my last exam, woohoo! Also we had a few torrential downpours due to a thunder storm passing so my umbrella got obliterated and I arrived home and had to wring out my scarf!  I have to say the hot shower I had when I got home was THE best.

So eating has been fine today but I had 2 cheeky glasses of wine this evening in celebration...man I'm wild...however this weekend I am off to a beer festival so really excited about that!  Obviously I won't be having beer, I only associate beer with being in a hot Spanish-speaking country or in Germany - that's when beer is refreshing :)  I'll be seeing friends and participating in dreaded BBQs (weather permitting) so I will be heading for the non-dressed salad and hopefully I can have a marinade-free chicken breast because BBQ is like grilling but from underneath right?  Although my usual tendency is to have a bottle of wine and forget about the food, liquid calories AND I usually find something to dance to.  I love weighing after nights out as there is always a 3-4lb loss purely because I've been sweating it out on the dance floor all night - so waterloss a major factor but I can live with that.  Also I never eat when coming home, I'm usually dragged round the late-night pizza and kebab houses with friends always trying to buy me chips but I'm so ingrained not to do it because by that point I'm probably going home to stick my head down the toilet! lol, great image there for everyone.

I will give you all a weigh-in next Wednesday - total calories today was approx 1300 with wine  - couldn't count precisely because my boyfriend was home so he would have asked me why I'm measuring out a glass of wine...

Oooo also latest is I've got a Slendertone Flex Max for abs which I found amazing reviews for on amazon and other shopping websites.  So had my first session today and if I only use it 4 times a week then you can get results in 2 weeks - knowing me I'll be on it twice a day.  I've never found crunches worked for me, pilates is the only other exercise that reeeeeally tones my stomach so I've bought a pilates DVD as well!...How will I ever save money?...

So I need some discipline this weekend, I have a choice: food or alcohol, and being the true Scot that I am I know which one I'll be leaning towards :)  Kind of praying that I'll have lost another 2lbs by next week, this week has been great so I'm determined it's going to continue!

Wednesday, 25 May 2011

Calorie Counting Works

Well I have to say today has not been that bad, this is my fifth day of calorie counting and actually measuring out food, etc., gives you a bit more self control and you don't just nip to the fridge for a quick snack because everything has to be counted :) 
Today I managed 784.75 calories.
Sorry for the 0.75 part but that was due to my banana being an awkward weight at breakfast!  I will update most days on calorie count but will give a weekly new weight as sometimes daily weighing can be a bit discouraging because it stands to reason that one day out of seven you may just maintain the weight from the day before.  I have to say that thinspiration is my main source of strength as I just keep reminding myself that I want to achieve THAT. 

Anyways I'm off to revise, exam tomorrow - eek!  I think the weight obsession has impacted my revision hours but I'll probably stay up until about 2 or 3am, caffeine tablets here I come!

Talk to you all soon!

Introduction - Path to skinnydom

So hello everyone, I'm 22 and live in London.  This is my first time blogging so excuse me for any mistakes or faux pas'.  Basically I'm setting up this blog to hold myself accountable for my weightloss and to talk to others who are in the same boat as me.  I am not pro EDs or anything of the sort, I myself in my teenage years suffered from Bulimia and have stomach problems as a result, it's a horrible experience and one which destroys your self-esteem and I never want to return to that place EVER again.  I'm losing weight by calorie control and exercise and hope to share this experience with anybody who reads this.  I have lost 4lbs this week already without any exercise, just through eating between 700-1300cals in a day.  I will be starting my exercise hopefully next week after exams are finished! yay!  Feel free to comment although I'd prefer no negative comments as I'm doing this for me and not to encourage EDs.
This is for all those people who feel the same way! (and to help my narcissism) :)
I will blog later! :)